You know…I’ve been thinking. Life is too short to be so…well, so “me” all the time. You all know what I’m talking about…worried…depressed…scared…sad…angry…stabby…crankypants…
Time goes by so quickly…it was the new year yesterday. I blinked and its the end of May. The last few days, I’ve felt SO good…I’ve been physically feeling so awful the last few weeks, that two days ago, when I woke up pain free…dear sweet tittyfucking Odin, what that did for my mood.
Yesterday, I was driving home from work with Morgan, and I was telling him something that I was concerned about. I cried a little, that’s just what I do, but…I actually listened to him when he told me that it really wasn’t going to be the end of the world, and that I shouldn’t worry until there is something to worry about. He’s right. (and he knows how much I hate admitting that.) 😉
I didn’t dwell though! I’m so proud of myself for that. I dried my tears, said “thank you” and moved on. It felt so good.
Today, I had a rough day at work. I vented…and then moved on.
I have so much coming up and going on that is positive, I’m trying REALLY hard to focus on that. I know what I’m like when I’m like this…I am little miss gloom and doom, and I don’t like that. I don’t like bringing people down…I don’t like feeling uncomfortable when I’m out in public. I prefer to feel this way…the way I’ve been feeling for the last few days. Happy. Content. Silly.
I’ve noticed a handful of things that I think contribute to my mood being this good…and to be honest…some of the things I’ve taken note of break my heart when I realize how true they are…but to truly be happy, I need to do what’s right for me…
Anyway. Short blog today…Just wanted to share about how content I’m starting to feel, and how I’ve made a decision to not let stupid shit bother me. Obviously, I don’t expect to be perfect at it all the time. But I’m making more of an effort.
I appreciate the patience and love of all of my friends and chosen family. Your support guides me and keeps me going.
I promise, one day I will post that special blog I’ve been talking about…I’m just waiting on a little feedback first.
Love you all.